• 02 September 2012

I can't believe it's already the 4th week of school. I WISH I CAN FAST FORWARD to 4years later. Or maybe, give me a magicball. And if I see my school life not being very interesting, I'll totally quit school. Don't wanna waste 4years of my precious youth. Wish I had a business of my own already or something else which gives me a reason to focus on instead of doing homework and mugging. I dare say I put in so much more effort for uni than poly. It also taught me that I had better change my mentality, cause the people I'm interacting with now are super zai people. No more chillax kias, or whatsoever. I really miss the poly culture, where I was just being myself - really, not as hardworking as everyone think I am... just cause they are lazier than me maybe. hahaha. But now, I wanna try to be hardworking also difficult la. It feels like hardwork won't be appreciated in University, le sighs. This is my life, welcome to my life.

They say SMU makes you a more vocal person, but for me, I feel like I'm becoming less of a vocal person. Last time in class, all close classmates so I would always gladly raise up my hand or simply shoot questions to my tutors when in doubt. Now, I hesitant even about raising my hand... because I don't know what 'smart things' to say. But really, I don't care, I think I will just ask... -.- hai. #lifeofasmugger

It's not just about smu. It's probably just me, and just about all schools.

I need a holiday. No, I just need things to work out in my favour, so that I had less one thing to mind.
God, if you have a plan for me, what is it? Could you please guide me? I'm sorry.