It's funny how the amount of time & effort I put in during poly days gets me the A grade (which honestly amazes even myself at times) YET, now in University, doubling the time & effort I put in now in SMU, all I'm hoping for is a pass or aim higher, B grade at least.
Sometimes, back in Poly, I think I don't deserve it or maybe the lecturers helped me get the grade thanks to the word "moderation". Whatever it is, I'm very appreciative. I guess, like what I've said. University is just a place for me to learn not score, cause I really can't. And, if learning is the essence, then I've caught it cause every mod I'm doing now, definitely challenges me intellectually. I learnt new things each and every class I attend, although sometimes it's a one ear in one ear out kinda thing. But anyways, I feel that my braincells, or the lack of them, are dying! There's limited so I've got to conserve them and put them to better use before I turn mental.
Nevertheless, I thankgod for my place in University, in SMU. As much as I ask myself why I choose to suffer and go through the whole studying process again, I reassure myself that at the point of contemplating further education, I would't have chosen any otherwise. God's plan, I'd say. And, I'm total trusting in him. Studies aside, I'm quite enjoying my time in SMU, SMU ministry... & everything I've experienced in these past months as well as every single person I've met.
Well, my point of coming to a University is not really about grades anymore. It's just a bonus... I'd be happy if I do well and I will promise myself to do my best still. But really, my whole point is to go for overseas internship, exchanges, ocsp, bsm and every other chance I would get only from University life. And, of course, it's about meeting new people, people from all walks of life. Glad I have a SMU church ministry, my second family. All my bros and sis in christ, feeling super duper loved.
And like what I have said, God has used this opportunity to test my faith in him and through doing so, I really understand the meaning of relying and putting total trust in him. There are things I can't control, but my God can!
Everything happens for a reason & the reason is you.