Sets me thinking.
I think to myself...
Why am I so indecisive? I thought, after writing this post.. or probably half way through it, I can find an answer. I don't know.
Why am I so indecisive? I thought, after writing this post.. or probably half way through it, I can find an answer. I don't know.
2.5 years ago, if you ask me which school I wanna continue my studies at. I would tell you TP & even, Business course. This is no doubt one of the BEST decisions I have ever made on my own. Family & Friends tell me to choose otherwise - Not the JCs, but other courses in Poly. Because with my single digit grade as an IJ girl, I would do better in things like Mass Comm or Law. Not everyone can get into that course simply because it's harder to get in. Business 15points. Irony right. But because, I know I would excel better in Business than Mass Comm & Law. If it's just for interest sake, I would definitely choose the latter, but now, I'm fighting for a slot to enter a local university. So I can't risk. The stakes are high.
And, when I entered Poly. Some people ask 'So what school are you in now?' They somewhat expected my ans to be 'JC' so when I say 'TP' then give me the 'OHH' look. At that instant, I feel like telling them.. Yeah, I'm a TP Scholar, I'm the President of TP. Beat that, dude. No, I'm not proud but it's just that look they wear on their face that irks me.
Why Poly? Because I wanted to go UNI, as ironic as it sounds. If I wanted to enter a local uni, then why not go to a JC. I can tell you, it's because I KNOW MYSELF BEST. If I had gone to a JC, I would DIE... a horrible death. I can tell you that, even without trying. Because I am not born smart, I don't write well, I speak well. I would die in GP and stay back in JC another year. Like that, why not I go poly. Besides, I hate maths & science. I know the poly route would suit me more. No doubt about it. Stress like siao but from the Poly I learnt ALOT more. It taught me how to be nocturnal, I met the awesome friends... those like me who aims to go Uni & I enjoy studying with them. I learnt social skills. I learnt leadership skills. It opened my eyes to things like elections and leading an entire Business school. Whoa! And, I got to experience things like clubbing and even omg underaged clubbing (which you confirmed will regret and cannot do once you turn 18 because it's not considered underaged anymore), things like drinking, birthdays, sleepovers, events after events. Poly campus life is so much more fun. I confirmed double chop will tell people to come poly. I enjoy TP Open House because I get to sell business school to potential intakes. I can tell you all about Business school at the back on my hand off my head. Trust me, and don't doubt me, I have never regretted my stay in Poly (Okay, maybe besides the fact that I have the perception that SAJC & ACJC guys are cute?!?). & I know what I wanted. The route of poly-uni is much better than JC-uni because we have learnt stuffs and we are supposed to have an advantage over the rest even if they come from RJC or whatsoever.
And, when I entered Poly. Some people ask 'So what school are you in now?' They somewhat expected my ans to be 'JC' so when I say 'TP' then give me the 'OHH' look. At that instant, I feel like telling them.. Yeah, I'm a TP Scholar, I'm the President of TP. Beat that, dude. No, I'm not proud but it's just that look they wear on their face that irks me.
Why Poly? Because I wanted to go UNI, as ironic as it sounds. If I wanted to enter a local uni, then why not go to a JC. I can tell you, it's because I KNOW MYSELF BEST. If I had gone to a JC, I would DIE... a horrible death. I can tell you that, even without trying. Because I am not born smart, I don't write well, I speak well. I would die in GP and stay back in JC another year. Like that, why not I go poly. Besides, I hate maths & science. I know the poly route would suit me more. No doubt about it. Stress like siao but from the Poly I learnt ALOT more. It taught me how to be nocturnal, I met the awesome friends... those like me who aims to go Uni & I enjoy studying with them. I learnt social skills. I learnt leadership skills. It opened my eyes to things like elections and leading an entire Business school. Whoa! And, I got to experience things like clubbing and even omg underaged clubbing (which you confirmed will regret and cannot do once you turn 18 because it's not considered underaged anymore), things like drinking, birthdays, sleepovers, events after events. Poly campus life is so much more fun. I confirmed double chop will tell people to come poly. I enjoy TP Open House because I get to sell business school to potential intakes. I can tell you all about Business school at the back on my hand off my head. Trust me, and don't doubt me, I have never regretted my stay in Poly (Okay, maybe besides the fact that I have the perception that SAJC & ACJC guys are cute?!?). & I know what I wanted. The route of poly-uni is much better than JC-uni because we have learnt stuffs and we are supposed to have an advantage over the rest even if they come from RJC or whatsoever.
The plan was to go to a Mass Comm degree after taking a Business degree. But now looking at my choices, I guess I'll have to give up Mass Comm. Because of holistic purpose.
Studying overseas has never been my option. Singapore's education system is stressful and I hate it. I would do well overseas I guess. BUT, ironically, I would choose to STILL stay in Singapore. Because I know I wouldn't study well overseas. I would end up playing and travelling, my heart just isn't there. Plus, asking me to give up all I have in Singapore is hard for me. My friends, My family, My church, etc.
Studying overseas has never been my option. Singapore's education system is stressful and I hate it. I would do well overseas I guess. BUT, ironically, I would choose to STILL stay in Singapore. Because I know I wouldn't study well overseas. I would end up playing and travelling, my heart just isn't there. Plus, asking me to give up all I have in Singapore is hard for me. My friends, My family, My church, etc.
Studying in Singapore since has been my choice, yet I am scared. Everyone says it's gonna be a battlefield, a very very competitive one. Isit true? I don't want to die. I don't want to be suffocated. You see, in poly, I do the work can do until cry. Do accounting & stats I wanna commit suicide. And, it's ONLY poly standard. So if I go Uni, HOW sia. CONFIRMED DIE.
Anyways, back to the entire crux of this post.
How am I to decide my future.
How am I to decide my future.
Yes, 2.5 years ago, I know I wanna get into Business, because I enjoy Business and also, it's a good stepping stone to entering a local Uni. Now, 2.5 years later, just left with my internship and a last semester before graduation, I find myself asking myself and having to choose a next step in life. This step is not as easy as before, it's not just choosing for the sake of going somewhere else. Because Uni is confirmed my final step in education. Before officially graduating. It's time I decide my job. What I wanna be.
An entrepreneur, A lawyer, An MP, A childcare teacher, A Media Personnel?
I wish I could be everything in the world. But I know I can't.
I will have to put some thinking to it before choosing. Right now, I have some uni course options, but they don't seem very interesting to me either. sighs, I'm not cut out for studying but I want a uni campus life. Meeting new friends & doing projects. The love of my life.
Having said so much, I better study hard now and get my ass into somewhere good, somewhere I like.
An entrepreneur, A lawyer, An MP, A childcare teacher, A Media Personnel?
I wish I could be everything in the world. But I know I can't.
I will have to put some thinking to it before choosing. Right now, I have some uni course options, but they don't seem very interesting to me either. sighs, I'm not cut out for studying but I want a uni campus life. Meeting new friends & doing projects. The love of my life.
Having said so much, I better study hard now and get my ass into somewhere good, somewhere I like.
This semester confirmed pull my good grades down. Oh lord, I pray...
Do a miracle for your daughter here please. I would deeply appreciate it!
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